Happiness

Bakit ganun? Kapag nawawala ka, hinahanap ka.. Pag naman nanjan ka, binabalewala ka? Bakit hindi napapansin yung halaga mo kapag anjan ka? Kasi alam nila na hindi mo sila matitiis? Na hindi mo siya iiwan?  Kasi mahal mo siya? Eh pano kung pagod ka ng mabalewala? :( Ang hirap sa tao eh. Kapag wala na tsaka magsisisi. Tsk. Nangyari na din sakin yan. Nagsisisi ako.. Kaya ngayon, kinakarma ako. Na ako ang binabalewala.. Pero sige. Okay lang. =) pag naman nagsawa ako eh.. Panigurado yun. Wala na talaga. =) Haayy. Labo nu? Hirap din kasi sa mga babae eh.. Kaya wala rin akong masabi.. Minsan nga, sasabihin mahal ka.. Pero di mo ramdam. Buti pa yung iba na dinadaan na lang sa paramdam eh.. Mas gusto mo pa.. Haayy.. Kaya natuto na ko.. Pag may dumating, di ko na babalewalain.. At yung nambabalewala sakin? Hahaha! Hintayin mong mapagod ako.. Dahil pag napagod ako.. Mawawalan ka na ng halaga sakin. Kahit ikaw pa yung gusto kong pakasalan at iharap sa altar.. =) Pu...

"I want the real thing.. To hold me each night.. Someone to love me over and over.." I super like this song.. It really express what I want. And for sure.. Kayo din!! :) may napanuod ako na video sa facebook. Nakalimutan ko kung kanino kaya di ko na mahanap. Video yun sa Eat Bulaga.. And nakuha nun ang attention ko.. Ang title kasi.. "TRUE LOVE Exists. Eat Bulaga's Juan for all, all for Juan" Edi pinanuod ko. Kasi for sure, tatawa na naman ako.. Pero nagkamali ako.. Umiyak ako.. Dun kasi sa napuntahan nila, isang girl.. Laurena ang name. (not sure kung tama ang spelling) then may asawa siya.. Yung asawa niya, naaksidente. Nasunog yung katawan.. Hindi ko na masyadong idedetalye.. Kasi masyadong mahaba.. And isa lang naman ang nakapagpaiyak sakin dun.. Yung sinabi niyang.. "MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA.. Hindi kita iiwan. Kasi parang iniisip mo na iiwan kita dahil ganyan ka.. Pero kung gusto kitang iwan, matagal na. Mahal na mahal kita kaya di k...

Someone asked me: "Miguel, are you happy?" Of course I am. I am happy because my family is okay.. My friends is okay.. I am okay.. =) tapos sabi sakin.. "buti ka pa.. Ang hirap maging masaya.." Napa-haayy na lang ako.. Wala naman akong dapat sabihin.. Broken hearted kasi siya eh.. Eh tapos lalaki din siya. Hahaha. Baka mainlove sakin eh.. Lol. Pero seryoso..  Bakit nga ba kasi ang hirap maging masaya?? Akala niya lang kasi yun eh.. Madali lang yun lalo na kung napapaligiran ka ng maraming kaibigan at mapagmahal na pamilya.. Dun pa lang masaya na ko eh.. =) Masyado kasi niyang iniisip na ang pwedeng magpasaya lang sakanya eh lovelife. Hindi naman ganun un eh.. Hindi laging lovelife.. =) ewan ko ba. Nasanay na kasi tayo na kapag walang lovelife, di ka na masaya.. Naku. Yan nga ang isa sa pinakamasarap. Walang lovelife. Wala ka masyado iniisip, flirt flirt. Hahaha! Pero masaya din kasi talaga ang may lovelife.. May nag-aalala sayo.. May k...

Hahaha!! Binasa mo! Bakit? Bitter ka? Hahaha! Hmm.. Bakit nga ba nagkakaron ng mga bitter sa mundo!? Eh dahil na rin siguro sa mga taong di marunong tumupad sa pangako.. Ako? Minsan na rin naman akong naging bitter. Bitter sa lahat. Nagagalit ako.. But in the end, alam ko at guilty ako na yung maling nagawa o nasabi ko sa taong kina-bibitteran ko ay hindi talaga maganda.. Hindi maganda ang epekto. At hindi maganda na nagpapa-apekto. Pero sa totoo lang kasi, ang hirap na hindi magpa-apekto.. Yung tipong pretend pretend na okay sayo pero deep inside, ang sakit sakit na.. At yung pain, dinadaan natin sa pagiging bitter sa tao.. Ako? Iniisip ko na lang.. May mga bagay na nakalaan para sakin.. Lalo na sa babae. Masyado kasi akong magmahal eh.. Kaya pag iniwan ako, nagiging bitter ako.. Pero di niyo rin naman ako masisisi.. Kasi siyempre. Matagal kong pinangarap na magkaron ng matatag na lovelife.. Yung talagang.. Para sakin na? Yung gusto ko na pakasalan. An...

I cried. =( yes!! And asked myself... Where's my true love? My One Great Love? Why I can't find you? Where are you? =(

this is my favorite music video ever. =)

My new CRUSH! Wooot! Pero crush lang. Ang malas. Accounting din. Tapos UST pa!! TIGILAN NIYO NA KO!!!! hahahaha!! =)

Look in to my eyes tell me what you see I know you see the smile that's what they all can see. But do you see the pain do you see the hurt I don’t think you can because most people don’t. Once a lil boy so happy shining smile Dreaming to be loved cared and never hurt Ya that’s what my dreams we're for growing up to be A loving happy family for everyone to see Then just one mistake and everything is over And you close your eyes wish to born all over Yes you close your eyes try to turn the time Try to do the right thing to bring the happy times To be the little boy again and smile laugh and dream To never get this feeling that life is not for me. So what you gonna blame me, break my heart and soul Tell me that I'm nothing and make me wish I've never born? Don't tell me I can't be loved be happy or be cared. I still believe in miracles so don’t crush my hopes don’t even dare Maybe this is not the life I wanted to live Maybe this is not the way my life supposed to...

Darlin' I can't explain Where did we lose our way Girl it's drivin' me insane And I know I just need one more chance To prove my love to you If you come back to me I'll guarantee That I'll never let you go Can we go back to the days our love was strong Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong Can somebody tell me how to get things back The way they used to be Oh God give me a reason I'm down on bended knee I'll never walk again until you come back to me I'm down on bended knee So many nights I dreamt Holding my pillow tight I know that I don't need to be alone When I open up my eyes To face reality Every moment without you It seems like eternity I'm begging you, begging you come back to me Can we go back to the days our love was strong Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong Can somebody tell me how to get things back The way they used to be Oh God give me a reason I'm down on bended knee I'll never walk again until y...

Someone told me: Multiply blogs – mostly about being inlove with someone etc. Ngayon – blogs with heartbroken, what could have been… etc J HAHAHAHA! Nakalimutan ko na ata ang feeling ng isang taong inlove… Hahaha! Eh kasi naman… napagdadaanan ko lang lately mga sinusulat ko sa blogs ko… and I don’t feel the love lately… parang puro bitterness… hahahaha. Joke lang. siyempre. Love yan. Nararamdaman ko pa naman. Kaya lang, wala akong masulat lately sa pagiging inlove ko… I’m still inlove with the woman I love for a long time now… she’s my life. J kaya lang, Malabo ang mga bagay bagay eh… di pa namin napaguusapan ang lahat… I’ll marry her soon. Kaya lang, madami kaming kailangang ayusin eh… ako, siya… mahirap naman kasi na ikwento ko lahat ng pinagdadaanan naming problema… basta as of now, okay kaming dalawa… ewan ko sakanya… lagi kasi siyang antok lately… pagod sa work. Ako rin ganun. L kaya wala kaming magawa… pero lagi ko siyang naiisip. Alam niyo ba yun? Mahal ko siya e...

Yesterday, looking in your eyes, I caught a glimpse of tomorrow And that's when I realized, that dreams come true. For you love there's nothing I would not do. Do I love you? Baby, I do. That's why, I'd sail across the ocean, bring you the sun. With you I see forever, you are the one. Girl, you're everything I need and more. You are my everything, my everything. For sure. My heart, beats for you. You are a light in the darkness. You make me feel brand new, And looking in your eyes, I can tell you feel the same way too. Do I love you? Baby, I do. I'd sail across the ocean, bring you the sun. With you I see forever, you are the one. Girl, you're everything I need and more. You are my everything, my everything. For sure. Wish I may, wish I might, To have you here in my arms for the rest of my life. I pray that you'll stay in my heart for always. I'd sail across the ocean, bring you the sun. With you I see forever, you...

I have been trying to reach you with no luck. I am posting this so hopefully one day you will find it, although I doubt you will. Maybe I will get lucky and someone we know will see it and tell you about it. The days has really changed the woman I once knew, but it was for the good. You have done so much for yourself I couldn't be more proud of you.  I know that things between us went terribly wrong. I want to fix them. I am not pointing fingers or placing blame on anyone. I just want to fix them.  I know we are no longer a couple but I wish we were. I have always been there for you and nothing will ever change that. I still love you more than anything in this world. I know I have made a ton of mistakes but I would like to put those behind us, if at all possible, so we can move on with the rest of our lives, live on with the good and leave the bad behind us. I know that will be hard, especially after all that I have done, but if we could start all ov...

Babae: kapag may kasalanan ka sakin at galit ako, suyuin mo ko.. Lalaki: kapag may kasalanan ka sakin at galit ako, ibabalik mo lahat ng kasalanan ko simula ng maging tayo... Tapos ikaw na yung magagalit. Ikaw na ang susuyuin..  Babae: kapag may nakitang kasamang babae si Lalaki, hindi humihingi ng paliwanag! BABAERO, CHICKBOY, MANLOLOKO ka na agad!! Lalaki: kapag may nakitang kasamang lalaki si babae, kailangang pakinggan yung paliwanag. Kesyo bakla or bestfriend niya lang yung kasama niya....  Babae: pag tinignan mo ang cellphone niya at di niya pinakita, dapat okay lang. Kasi privacy niya yun eh.. Lalaki: pag tinignan mo ang cellphone niya at di pinakita, sasabihin agad sayo... may babae ka!!! May tinatago ka!!!  Babae: kapag matagal sa bathroom, okay lang... Babae kasi eh... Matagal talaga kumilos!!! Lalaki: kapag matagal sa bathroom, may ginagawa agad na milagro!!?????  Babae: kapag sinabi niyang may laka...

Bakit ang galing magtago ng feelings ng babae? May friend ako… Sinampal niya yung ex niya… Kasi babaero daw. Sabi niya sa guy, “HINDI NA KITA MAHAL… MATAGAL NA!” Tapos ngayon, umiiyak? Hahaha! Napaniwala mo nga ex mo na hindi mo na siya mahal eh. Tapos yung sarili mo pala hindi mo mapaniwala. Mahirap yun. Pero nagtataka lang ako… bat ang galling nila magtago ng feelings? Kapag sinabi nilang hindi na nila mahal, mahal pa nila… tapos kapag sinabing mahal pa, minsan… wala na palang feelings! Ang labo!! Pero kung lalaki yun? Wala. Buking agad kung totoo ba yung feelings o hindi. Ano bang meron? Bakit ang galing nila magtago? At bakit kailangan itago? Some of the unsaid feelings are from girls… bakit ganun? Takot ba silang magmahal? O takot silang masaktan? Or both? Hindi naman nakakatakot magmahal eh… masarap nga yun. Ang nakakatakot, yung mag-take ng risk… baka kasi ang ending, masaktan ka lang. pero di mo naman malalaman kung anong sagot kung di ka magte-tak...

I'm really into Chinese lately. I don't know why. Hahaha! =) She's so pretty and amazing volleyball player! I'm crazy! And I think I'm in love! LOL =) GRETCHEN ONG- HO

Huhu. I'll say goodbye na sa old phone ko. Reason? Upgrading phone. Ayoko sana i-let go. Pero di naman pwede na itambak ko yung lahat ng phone ko kasi ayoko lang silang mawala.. =( Isa sa pinakamasakit na part to. Ang i-let go ang isang bagay na maraming memories. Nokia C3 kasi yun. Maraming memories kasi una, binili ko yun para same kami ng ex ko before.. Marami siyang old messages dun nung 2010 pa. Mga friends ko na nagtetext ng happy birthday at mga I miss you nila sakin at messages.. Next, yung messages namin nung sumunod kong girlfriend. Siyempre. Andun pa yung messages namin ng nanay niya and ng kapatid niya. Ang hirap i-let go.. Haayy. Pero I need to. Hindi naman kasi pwedeng i-preserve ko lang kung pwede ko namang ibenta db? Lalo na kung yung makakabili nun eh makakatulong sakanya.. For almost 4yrs.. Gamit ko na yung phone na yun. At ngayon, pakakawalan ko na.. Andaming memories. Pero sabi sakin nung friend ko.. Minsan kailangan ko daw bitawan...

I wish I could go back in time to our relationship, back before hurt found its way into our hearts. If only I could slip myself back to those moments, I would have have been more honest to myself and more attentive to what my heart was telling me. I would have held you a little longer and never, ever hurt you ... but time will not allow me to go back and change my mistakes. I can't take away the questions that flood you, but I can try to answer them. I can't erase the pain that fills your heart, but I can help in trying to ease it. I know that I can't just jump back into your life and expect everything to remain the same, nor can I expect you to still have intimate feelings for me. A lot of time has passed between us and just because I feel as though I am now ready to have you in my life; it may now be different for you. I know I can't have things fall into place whenever I am ready for them; destiny has no patience and holds for no one. I might have lost my chan...

YES!!!! It’s called break up because it’s broken!!! Bakit nga ba? Eh kasi nga, madaming broken. Broken PROMISES. Broken Trust. Broken Heart. Broken Hymen!! Broken etc.. Alam naman natin yun. At tama nga! Its called break up! Kaya ngayon, alam na natin bakit sinasabi na break na kami.. kasi brineak niya yung promises niya na di ka niya iiwan. Siguro may feelings pa. pero shit! Bat ka niya iniiwan ng ganun na lang? kasi nga, basag na basag na siya. Di na niya alam kung mabubuo pa siya after.. Bakit kaya ansakit makipagbreak? Di ko rin alam. Pero siguro, dahil nga sa broken promises. =( ang hirap kaya. Di natin agad natatanggap na yung taong nangako satin ng kung ano-ano.. iiwan na lang tayo ng basta. Kahit ako, nahihirapan akong tumanggap ng salitang “BREAK NA TAYO” Haaay. Ang hirap pero minsan kailangan nating tanggapin at intindihin.. may reason naman siguro siya bakit siya nakipagbreak. Hindi naman sa wala lang. sana kaya kong i-explain lahat. Di ko rin kasi a...