Happy Tears

Look in to my eyes tell me what you see
I know you see the smile that's what they all can see.
But do you see the pain do you see the hurt
I don’t think you can because most people don’t. Once a lil boy so happy shining smile
Dreaming to be loved cared and never hurt
Ya that’s what my dreams we're for growing up to be
A loving happy family for everyone to see
Then just one mistake and everything is over
And you close your eyes wish to born all over
Yes you close your eyes try to turn the time
Try to do the right thing to bring the happy times
To be the little boy again and smile laugh and dream
To never get this feeling that life is not for me.
So what you gonna blame me, break my heart and soul
Tell me that I'm nothing and make me wish I've never born?
Don't tell me I can't be loved be happy or be cared.
I still believe in miracles so don’t crush my hopes don’t even dare
Maybe this is not the life I wanted to live
Maybe this is not the way my life supposed to be?
Have you ever wounder how hard it is for me?
To look at lovely couples and wish for a loved one near.
To wake up every morning and wish for a gentle kiss.
To hear someone say I love you and kiss away the tears.
No one will ever know what's behind my smile
The pain in my eyes will always burn like fire.
All the pain I have and what I've been through
Will stay with me forever until my day is dew.
Yes I will smile and hide a away the pain
I'm use to it by now I do it everyday.
I don't deserve to be happy too I am a human after all.
So please don't ever judge me if you haven't lived my life
Never hurt my feelings i've been hurt enough.
So please look in to my eyes tell me what you see
I know you see a happy smile that's what they all can see.
But please try to see the pain try to see the tears
Try to understand me and understand my fears.